Saturday, April 25, 2009
I really dunno whats wrong with me today. I just cant control my feelings . Randomly think of godpa. And you thought that i think of something else which i never. Totally no. And you like " yuan wang " me for the whole thing. At that point of time i'm so confused and dunno what i'm doing le and dun even know what i wanna type , how am i going to say out my feelings or what i referring. I thought u know is because of my godpa but no... U still think that i will recall about the past. For what i wanna recall about the past ? i know u will say dunno. I will never think of anything except my godpa. I dunno why i just cant let go. Maybe i never even try to let go before, i miss him too much. Although he had passed away one year le , i just cant let go. To me , it seems like yesterday. The feeling of heartache , regret and pain. March saw him , April he is gone. Too sudden for me to accept it. I'm way too emotional. Letting out by crying will make me feel better. " ni zhe yang jiang wo rang wo gan dao hen nan guo ". Pillow is the only thing that i can hug now. Just can't control my tears from flowing.Labels: one year plus yet i still cant let go